Breathing Again
I know, I know, it has been a while since I have entered anything into my blog. I have been reminded of this by several people. I could blame it on my busy schedule during baseball season. Or that I was trying to get everything ready to finish school out and prepare for another summer. As true as that would be, it would not be the entire truth.
The fact is it has been really hard to put down in words what I have been feeling inside. I heard this person say once, that the thing with yoga, is you are suppose to continue this constant rate of breathing no matter what contorted position you may be trying to put your body in. Whether you are sitting with your legs simply crossed, or if you have yourself in a knot, you just control your breathing. I thought this concept was very interesting. Just keep breathing.
You see, the beginning of this year was an amazing chain of events, amazing not being such a good thing. It seemed as though life hit my wife and I in the gut, and then did not stop. We experienced so much turmoil, and the hard part of this was we could not control any of it. We just had to endure it. Throughout everything that happened, I would do my best to let go of the control of the situation. But after the weeks and months continued to send this stuff at us, I was just in a contorted position that I have never been in before. I did everything I could to help my wife keep breathing through it. I did everything I could to help my brother keep breathing. I did everything I could to help my parents keep breathing. Then I realized I had started holding my breath. Isn’t that what we do, when we get in a stressful situation, as we are trying to figure out what we are suppose to do, we simply stop breathing.
This pastor that I listen to often talks about the word breath being a powerful thing in scripture. He talks about how this breath that we take could be the Spirit of God running through us, strengthening us and helping us endure and live. So why stop breathing? I realized I had no control over the beginning of 2007 and everything that came with it, and I realized that I had allowed it to take my breath away. At that point I decided to just start breathing again and to find the will of God for me through the journey.
I wish I could say that all the suffering and pain stopped at that very moment, it did not. Life still happens. But now, we are all breathing our way through it. My wife and I are expecting our first baby (a boy!), my dad is cancer free, I have a new windshield for my truck, my wife has a new car, my brother has a good job, my mom is happy(er), and we are all breathing again.
The fact is it has been really hard to put down in words what I have been feeling inside. I heard this person say once, that the thing with yoga, is you are suppose to continue this constant rate of breathing no matter what contorted position you may be trying to put your body in. Whether you are sitting with your legs simply crossed, or if you have yourself in a knot, you just control your breathing. I thought this concept was very interesting. Just keep breathing.
You see, the beginning of this year was an amazing chain of events, amazing not being such a good thing. It seemed as though life hit my wife and I in the gut, and then did not stop. We experienced so much turmoil, and the hard part of this was we could not control any of it. We just had to endure it. Throughout everything that happened, I would do my best to let go of the control of the situation. But after the weeks and months continued to send this stuff at us, I was just in a contorted position that I have never been in before. I did everything I could to help my wife keep breathing through it. I did everything I could to help my brother keep breathing. I did everything I could to help my parents keep breathing. Then I realized I had started holding my breath. Isn’t that what we do, when we get in a stressful situation, as we are trying to figure out what we are suppose to do, we simply stop breathing.
This pastor that I listen to often talks about the word breath being a powerful thing in scripture. He talks about how this breath that we take could be the Spirit of God running through us, strengthening us and helping us endure and live. So why stop breathing? I realized I had no control over the beginning of 2007 and everything that came with it, and I realized that I had allowed it to take my breath away. At that point I decided to just start breathing again and to find the will of God for me through the journey.
I wish I could say that all the suffering and pain stopped at that very moment, it did not. Life still happens. But now, we are all breathing our way through it. My wife and I are expecting our first baby (a boy!), my dad is cancer free, I have a new windshield for my truck, my wife has a new car, my brother has a good job, my mom is happy(er), and we are all breathing again.
posted by Jeff at 8:20 AM
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